To prove I haven't been doing absolutely nothing

Here are some drawerings from my breakthrough arts class

The head looked perfectly fine at the angle I drew it from. Flat it justs wrong

The model is very nice and pretty, but she bores me to tears. These poses here? They're super exagerrated.

But it gives me a good chance to focus on anatomy, which my teacher is super knowledgable at. Yay.

Still not dead yet

So I would just like to make sure everyone knows I still exist. Things have been slow since I turned in the portfolio...BUT! I went to Hawaii. Here are some lovely photos of the trip. I took hundreds, but these are my favorites
This was a waterfall in Waimea Valley. It's supposedly sacred. I got to swim out there and sit under it like those people too. It was cold but beautiful

We stayed at an Episcopalien Church Camp, seeing at my Aunt, who is a director of a camp in South Carolina, was there for a conference, which is the whole reason we go to go anyway. This was the view from next to my bed. It was awesome. I don't like fancy hotels that much, I'd much rather just sleep in a cabin with bunk beds, so this was perfect
Lanikai/Kailua beach. We snorkeled here.

The waves are notorious for being huge there. We were on the north shore, which has all the famous surfing contests. I actually got to see one, but I didn't have my camera that day. The waves got up to be 25 feet. It was insane.

I did a number of other things on the trip, like go to Hilo and see an active volcano and play the ukelele and we drove all over the island of Oahu. It was super relaxing. I would go to bed at about 8 or 9 every night since there wasn't anything to do once the sun went down, and I would wake up at 7 the next day. I wish I could live like that for real! I could totally consider taking a year to go be a surf bum on the north shore while working on art. It would be amazing. And much warmer than being a snowboard bum =P

So as far as art goes, like I said I've cooled down a bit since the portfolio got done. I've gone to life drawing a couple of times, but they're cutting our hours at work a shit ton because the fiscal year just started for retail, so I'm trying to save money. I also just spent all my money going to hawaii. The free one is back up and running, at a different school this time, so now its a pain in the ass to find parking. But I still go.

In class I'm working on my graffiti thingy, which is just as hard as I thought it would be. Also, I've learned my lesson to NEVER BUY CHEAP PAINT AGAIN. The spray cans thats are 97 cents each are so painful to use. x.x And they get pain all over your finger somehow and its 14 degrees out so your fingers are number except for the jabbing spray head and it looks and feels like you are bleeding paint. Just awful.

I'm starting my short animation thingy. I don't really know what to call it anymore, since I have no idea what direction I'm headed in. I've been doing a lot of research and practice and stuff. Truthfully I'm terrified it's going to come out awful and I will have failed as animator and that will mean I am not cut out for the job at all. But I've got to try anyway.

I am also trying to work on something for my friends Art for Wildlife Show, which is some sort of fundraiser for wildlife or whatnot. I'm excited because a lot of people are supposed to show up, and it'll be the first time I've ever really been showcased as an artist. So whatever I do MUST. BE. AWESOME. The works are for sale too, so I hope to do something good enough to sell. I want to help wildlife, after all.

IB is currently raping my soul. I have just finished up almost all IAs and CAS and all of that. I have one math IA left to do (due in...3 days. Haven't started. Should probably get on that) and then I'm done with all requirements except for testing in May (April for Art. Yipes, I have so much work to do)

Otherwise, my life is pretty normal. Which means it's not normal at all, but we all know how that goes. I feel way too stuck on the past these days. I keep finding myself going through old photos and emails and wishing everything could have been different. I'd really like to move on from what happened in 9th grade, but I'm obsessed with it. The best answer is to just let go. It's so hard, I can't. I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

Graduation in 104 days. 18 in 29 days. Woooo!

Also, I must say I am always surprised at my ability to rant about my life. I'd show more arty pictures, but alas, I have none. :( Sad day

I'm not dead yet

Well, I am not entirely dead yet. I haven't been doing too much life drawing, trying to save money right now. But I've still been drawing quite a bit.
I decided for my final project in art this year I want to do a short film. This was an intention I've had all year. I'm still unsure of whether or not I can pull it off, but its something I really want to try/do. Its going to be about a girl and her cactus, I think. I am aiming for 45 seconds. I still have no clue how to go about it besides drawing pictures on paper and flipping them around a whole bunch. I guess I should go check out the animators survival guide again from the library.





I was sketching today in math. I found I have this problem...whenever I draw women they all have the same face type. Thats another goal this year. I guess I will get cracking on portraits and such.
It's unfinished so far.

















I had some sort of weird obsession with mermaids today, so I drew a whole bunch. Dunno why.

My current project is keeping me very busy. I am going to do a graffiti/mural peice in the school. I am SO excited about this. Ever since I wrote my extended essay on pixacao in brazil I have been fascinated with this culture, and I'm so psyched to get to try my own hand at it (legally, unfortunately)

This is the one I like best so far. I think I will be using this design

also, this is a project I finished up semi-recently, or at least a painted representation of it. I kicked my foot through a canvas. It was fun.

Here is the Imcompetent League. To be renamed at a later date.

It consists of my alter ego, Moose Boogers. She fights used tissues with her awesome gloves. There is Pregnant woman. Her powers are horomone rage attack and water burst. And Squidboy! He has to be carried around in a bucket. But he's really good at math and defeator of pens that have run out of ink (my no. 1 nemisis)






aaaaand finally....

oh math class...so productive.

I have a major case of senioritis. I find myself coming home every day and doing nothing for 6 hours, then an hour of homework, and 2 more hours of nothing. In the next two days I've got half my psych IA due, all of my bio IA due (whats the use for that? my incompetent teacher will probably give me a 3/6 on every section...sure, give the IB seniors the NEW teacher. awesome) a timed writing in english, my TOK essay due, and yea...it hasn't been a very good week.

In other news, HAWAII IN 3 DAYS!

Confirmed

I received an email confirming that my portfolio arrived last monday. Who knows? Someone could be reviewing it right as I type this.

I hate that thought. The fact that someone is judging my hard work and in turn judging me. Hate it.

Moving Along

Finally got back to drawing. I guess with all the snow, holidays, and sending in the portfolio I haven't made it in...awhile. I thought I would be really rusty, but I didn't do too bad. I especially like the second one. I somehow managed to make it look like the model. Who was terribly boring, by the way.

And here's what would happen if calarts sent an acceptance letter, just for fun:

2010

It's a new year.

Lets pray it's better than the last few.

My resolutions are as follows:

1. Maintain weight yet again

2. Be stressed less

3. Hang out with less toxic people

4. Make some damn good art

5. Be more confident

I am graduating this year. I am so unsure of my future. Its scary and thrilling at the same time.

I guess I am just crossing my fingers for love!

Happy new year!

Portfolio...For Sure

rough translation of poem in first peice:

(even though you don't

look upon it

favorably

the landscape is

not ugly

it may be

your way of looking

that is bad)

I thought it was fitting.

I also sent (in a seperate package, with a clear label and more return postage, so I hope it gets paired with my portfolio and sent back) a 260 page sketchbook. I tore out the last 20 pages since they were empty. I filled maybe 40 today o.o

The whole thing only cost $32, a lot less than I expected. I still need to pay the application fee of course.


I hope it arrives in time. I still need to write my artists statement.