Still not dead yet

So I would just like to make sure everyone knows I still exist. Things have been slow since I turned in the portfolio...BUT! I went to Hawaii. Here are some lovely photos of the trip. I took hundreds, but these are my favorites
This was a waterfall in Waimea Valley. It's supposedly sacred. I got to swim out there and sit under it like those people too. It was cold but beautiful

We stayed at an Episcopalien Church Camp, seeing at my Aunt, who is a director of a camp in South Carolina, was there for a conference, which is the whole reason we go to go anyway. This was the view from next to my bed. It was awesome. I don't like fancy hotels that much, I'd much rather just sleep in a cabin with bunk beds, so this was perfect
Lanikai/Kailua beach. We snorkeled here.

The waves are notorious for being huge there. We were on the north shore, which has all the famous surfing contests. I actually got to see one, but I didn't have my camera that day. The waves got up to be 25 feet. It was insane.

I did a number of other things on the trip, like go to Hilo and see an active volcano and play the ukelele and we drove all over the island of Oahu. It was super relaxing. I would go to bed at about 8 or 9 every night since there wasn't anything to do once the sun went down, and I would wake up at 7 the next day. I wish I could live like that for real! I could totally consider taking a year to go be a surf bum on the north shore while working on art. It would be amazing. And much warmer than being a snowboard bum =P

So as far as art goes, like I said I've cooled down a bit since the portfolio got done. I've gone to life drawing a couple of times, but they're cutting our hours at work a shit ton because the fiscal year just started for retail, so I'm trying to save money. I also just spent all my money going to hawaii. The free one is back up and running, at a different school this time, so now its a pain in the ass to find parking. But I still go.

In class I'm working on my graffiti thingy, which is just as hard as I thought it would be. Also, I've learned my lesson to NEVER BUY CHEAP PAINT AGAIN. The spray cans thats are 97 cents each are so painful to use. x.x And they get pain all over your finger somehow and its 14 degrees out so your fingers are number except for the jabbing spray head and it looks and feels like you are bleeding paint. Just awful.

I'm starting my short animation thingy. I don't really know what to call it anymore, since I have no idea what direction I'm headed in. I've been doing a lot of research and practice and stuff. Truthfully I'm terrified it's going to come out awful and I will have failed as animator and that will mean I am not cut out for the job at all. But I've got to try anyway.

I am also trying to work on something for my friends Art for Wildlife Show, which is some sort of fundraiser for wildlife or whatnot. I'm excited because a lot of people are supposed to show up, and it'll be the first time I've ever really been showcased as an artist. So whatever I do MUST. BE. AWESOME. The works are for sale too, so I hope to do something good enough to sell. I want to help wildlife, after all.

IB is currently raping my soul. I have just finished up almost all IAs and CAS and all of that. I have one math IA left to do (due in...3 days. Haven't started. Should probably get on that) and then I'm done with all requirements except for testing in May (April for Art. Yipes, I have so much work to do)

Otherwise, my life is pretty normal. Which means it's not normal at all, but we all know how that goes. I feel way too stuck on the past these days. I keep finding myself going through old photos and emails and wishing everything could have been different. I'd really like to move on from what happened in 9th grade, but I'm obsessed with it. The best answer is to just let go. It's so hard, I can't. I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

Graduation in 104 days. 18 in 29 days. Woooo!

Also, I must say I am always surprised at my ability to rant about my life. I'd show more arty pictures, but alas, I have none. :( Sad day