Monday, November 7, 2011

Ladida...not much to say this week.

Painting of my brother for photoshop.
Painting of trees for comp and color
Drawins of two characters from the book I am writing
Aaaand some figure draw-uhns. We've started doing tones. It's weird. I hate charcoal. Too messy.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Schoolwork Dump

Sooo I finally got around to getting some images put together of stuff I've been doing in school this semester. Let's dive in, shall we?

The following are 4 hour gesture sculptures. I gotta tell you, I wasn't sold much on sculpture until we started doing the full figure. Much more enjoyable, to say the least. Also we got free pizza on our make-up class on saturday, and only 7 people showed up. It was much nicer to have some space to work.
I do wish I had more time with these...they're not nearly as developed as they could be. It's obvious some views I pegged down better than others. 4 hours is not enough! I can't wait to delve into longer poses. Right now we're doing a 2 week pose, next will be our final 5 week pose. It's miraculously made me want to take more sculpture classes, which I never expected myself to say.

Before we did the full figure though, we did a 5 week portrait. I hated this. It didn't help that the model had very...rotund features, which are even harder to nail down than you would think. Easy to draw, hard to sculpt.

However after all these projects I managed to get an A- and be one of my teachers more favored

Ok anyway, photoshop. I love the teacher, hate the projects. They are just painfully boring so far. It's mostly been making selections and manipulating photos. Sigh...I guess its important to know.

Here's a really creepy head swap I did with my roommates friend Gabe. I just look like I am wearing a yellow tshirt, and while that is uncharacteristic of me, not that special. Gabe on the other hand has some creepy neck hair thing going on, as well as bra straps. Attractive.
This is our latest project, where we are supposed to make something look like it's been graffiti'd with our personal work. I used really old drawings of mine circa 10th grade. It looks kind of cool, although I'm not sure quite how believable it looks. I did everything my teacher suggested... the problem is he never demonstrates anything super, he just shows us what he considers "decent" work. Its very hard to determine what he wants.
We also did this cyborg manip that I would post except I can't find the jpg and I also used a lot of images off the web without permission, so I really shouldn't anyways.

Here's some of the more creative assignments we've had in composition and color. I love that class. I love illustrator in general, actually. Vectors are full of win. Also my teacher is hilarious, and really good at teaching. He breaks it down extremely well. Finally, someone who knows what they're doing.

One of our first assignments was to create images demonstrating the principles of design using only the letters in our full name. Thank god there is an I in my name...I don't know what I would have done without it.

Our latest project consisted of creating a propaganda poster (without using any real language) and explore different color relationships. There were 7 in total, but there were my favorite 3.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

7 weeks of figure drawing class...not a lot I'm pleased with. Frankly I'm just really sick of doing it, and also hearing the same shit over and over again for years on end. When do they teach me structure?? I've been a bad art student and only going to class, no weekend workshops for me.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

So it's October and I bet you all are wondering "Meri, where are those super amazing drawings you promised us over a month ago???"
The answer is: I don't know.

Have I apparently dropped off the face of the blogging planet?
According to my standards: yes.

Don't ask me why, or I will disappoint you again my friends. My mind is scattered today and I feel lost for words so I will be brief.

I really love it here at LCAD. Laguna Beach is super pretty, as long as you pretend there aren't all these other people here around you. The school is full of awesome teachers and legit classes. The weather is downright pleasant at worst. I like it here, and I don't want to move again, so I will not be putting together anymore entrance portfolios. I am staying.

What do I seem to be doing these days? Cutting a lot of things out in photoshop, and arranging lots of rectangles in illustrator. I'm sure the actual art bit will come eventually. But I am learning things, mostly. Well, not in figure drawing (big surprise) but everything else is worth my time. Oh ho ho, don't even get me started on figure sculpture. It hurts my brain.

Let's not even mention the going to the beach every weekend, preparing for NanoWrimo (which will be epic and decent this time around), looking for job (had an interview with coldstone today), cooking, cleaning, exercising several times a week, and someone who makes me feel like a stupid shy blushing little 13 year old girl again, not that that's much difference from the stupid, shy little 19 year old that I am. Whoops, already did.

BUT I have managed to do a bit of art here and there, so enjoy what you can, if you can:

1. Because I am a dork and have decided to fangirl hardcore about something because The Hunger Games is so totally worth fingerling about. Finnick4life!!! <3 So here is some fan art, for the first time ever. NEVER BACKLIGHT ANYTHING AGAIN.

2. Because the idea of Raindance Maggie is so sexy I can't help but draw a super implicative pin-up.

3. Because astronauts are cute AND NO I AM NOT A HIPSTER. But I am apparently a noob who types in all caps and talks to myself.'s bedtime.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

pretty art things up and coming


I got done with my summer job and vacation, got a new mac, and moved out to california, where I will be starting school at laguna college of art and design in just a few days. I had orientation yesterday and not only did they have spectacular catering, but I also met quite a few cool people and staff as well as saw the campus and got all the loose ends squared away.
I am so ready to start drawing again, this small hiatus/art block of mine has gone on for waaay too long but being back at a school makes me so excited to start things up again. And this year I actually get to start animating! Woohoo!
So expect pretty art things in the near future.

Friday, May 6, 2011

druheeng ah meez yew!

I can't seem to draw anything, for the life of me, since I got back. I hate it! I really want to do stuff, but I just can't! I feel like a lack of private work space is partially accountable for this (i.e. I have no desk anymore, besides the tiny pink and white one meant for an 8 year old...) but also my daily routine is so fucked up right now I can't seem to get anything in order. So I guess this is what an artist's block feels like.


what do I dooooo?

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Well I'm home again. It's weird to be back. I miss all my friends back at Sheridan, and I miss my room too. It was so much bigger and well organized! My room here is a mess, as is my life.

Anyways, let me tell you a story.
Once upon a time in 8th grade I had these characters I drew, and I had personalities for them, and a whole world set up (they were basically just geometric shapes with faces) And I had this notebook in which I wrote up whole scenes and scripts about stories that took place, and I had an overarching story about taking over the world involved even.
Anyways, this notebook became lost to space and time somehow, probably because I was making it around the time my parents got divorced so it was very tricky, especially with all my stuff because it was moving all over the place all the sudden. And now I greatly miss that notebook. Because I am convinced that everything I wrote in there was completely hilarious (as I thought at the time) and it is probably some of the funniest stuff I've ever written (probably not) On occasion I start thinking about it and go on a man-hunt to find that notebook, but I always fail. It's probably been thrown out, but I can't quit looking, because there is such a multitude of STUFF in both my houses that its just impossible to give up hope.
Today I thought maybe it got mixed in with the schoolwork boxes my parents kept (unfortunately they did not keep one for the year I wrote it, due to the divorce) but I checked my 7th grade box anyway. I did not find it, but I did find all the art projects I did that year. Oh what fun. They're pretty bad. But here are some self portraits I did in the middle of my 13th year of life that might entertain. All I remember is that we had to do them ON a mirror. Tricky.

Sad part is...I still have all those clothes.

Anyways, here's a portrait I did for class awhile ago. Proof that being hungover makes you try new things because you're really not even thinking about it. It's not perfect, but I liked my color work.

Anyways, I hope to one day find that notebook and laugh at how awesome I was (seriously, 8th grade was an amazing year for me creatively speaking) In the meantime I can keep myself entertained with all the other things I wrote (I'm a writing maniac...I'm sure my blog doesn't help disguise that at all) and hopefully write more things. I'm becoming increasingly interested in comedy. Although I've never found myself a very funny person. I'd like to work on that.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Mermaids! For Snowboards! Yea!

My final 2d project. I was just having fun with these.

Anyways, I've kind of been neglecting my 100 themes challenge in lieu of trying to finish everything up for the school year. Basically everything is due this week. Bleh.

ALSO I'm a little unsure of what I want to do next year.
I want to go to LCAD, but my Dad is telling me I need to commit to a school and thus give up hope on Calarts. So it's either go to LCAD or stay at home and hope I get in. Which is not really a guarantee, especially because I find it more difficult to progress in my work without an artistic infrastructure around me. So...I don't know. I've been stuck on this for awhile now. I'm about 75% sure I'm going to go to LCAD. I will apply to Calarts no matter what, and if I get in, well, that can be another battle. If I don't, I can stay where I am and be happy, right?
It's just hard. I think LCAD will be a great school, but it's Cal fucking arts, pushing students to their fullest potential. You get to make a film every year. And all the fucking guest lectures! And all the companies that come just to Calarts, every year....sigh...I can't just forget about that so easily :/
BUT I do want to get on with my life, and start working hard and being in animation and stuff. Oh man, I am SO TERRIBLE at big decisions.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

100 Themes Challenge- Week 2

9. Doom- see comic here. Warning: Very awkward if you know me. Also very large image.

10. Garden
11. Sadness
12. Confusion
13. Freedom
14. Inevitable
15. Idle...hippies are idle right?
16. in Canada has made me pretty much look like a vampire.

In other news:
I got accepted to Laguna College of Art and Design. With some money. Yay.
I decided not to appeal my Sheridan portfolio. I talked to a student and she said I just didn't have it...oh well.

I'm not sure what next year brings. I might go to LCAD but my Dad wants me to commit to a school and the only place I want to commit to is Calarts. So I may take a year off but that idea scares the poop out of me because I really like being in school and can't imagine anything else.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

From color theory class last week. I'm kind of sad he didn't want to keep mine, but I got an A so I can't complain. I really like it, it was a fun assignment. I also felt like I learned a lot from it. I realized this as I was working on my new painting this morning.

Today I woke up not sad at all about Sheridan. I'm mostly just irritated that everyone else is getting in. Sheridan wasn't my dream school, but I'd like some validation, especially for all that work I put into it.

Anyways, there is something thrilling and enticing about rejections. Sure, it's scary and I don't know what comes next, but that is also the fun part. I could do ANYTHING if I really wanted to. So much potential. Even though I hope I get into LCAD. I keep having daydreams about living in a groovy apartment I can't afford and learning how to surf in my free time.

Here are some drawings from tonight's life drawing that I almost like, but not quite

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Another Rejection

I got rejected to Sheridan's BAA animation program today. :/

I want to blame it on the fact that I'm an international student, and that my chances of getting in are significantly lower than my friends...when I compare my portfolio to theirs I feel we are evenly matched. But I can't really say anything until I see the scores.

It just makes me wonder....what the hell am I doing wrong?

SO many people tell me I've got what it takes, they expect to see me succeed, and then I fail. Am I just bad at putting together portfolios? What is going on?

Ugh, I'm really hoping LCAD will accept me now. I need the ego boost, and one of my close friends is going there next year and trying to convince me to come with...I am tempted...but I need to get accepted first, a thing which just isn't happening for me these days

Monday, March 28, 2011

What Makes a Great Teacher

Above is my most recent project from drawing systems. I honestly don't think it's super stellar. It's not bad, but I could have taken it so much further. I still got perfect marks on it. I guess you could say my drawing systems teacher likes me a lot. That's ok, I like her just as much back.
My drawing systems teacher, Sayeh, is incredible. She has so much devotion to helping her students. And I don't mean just in class. Sure, she'll spend anywhere from 5 to 20 minutes with us in class to talk about our work and what we should be doing individually. That's great, she really takes the time to make sure we understand the assignment, we are doing it correctly, and we are gaining something from it by pushing us. But she also cares a lot about our applications to other programs. This is a teacher who set up not just one but several sessions with animation and illustration students to take a look at our work and give us feedback. Did she have to do that? Not at all. But she wants to see the students that work hard succeed, so she did anyways. She gives us lectures not only about perspective and our projects, but about life and the wisdom she has gained from it. She passes on her knowledge, and I think she is very wise, constantly reminding us that no matter how talented we may be, we have to put the work into it to succeed, and that sometimes we still fail, and that's ok. I think it's rare to see a teacher with so much passion in a program like this, or in a college at all. I am really grateful I've had her as a teacher for even just this semester. I wish more teachers could be as dedicated as her.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

100 Themes Challenge- Week 1

As some of you may know, I've been complaining a lot recently at about how incompetent I feel with digital art. So I decided to take the 100 themes challenge (see here for more info, I am doing variation 4) and use each theme as my start for a quick sketch a day.
So, without further ado, here are the first 8.
1. Life
I wanted to start with a photo reference just to get a feel for things. Unfortunately, a glass of water (supposed to represent life) is really hard to paint x.x
I guess this just goes to show how bad I am at this.
2. Youth
3. Content
I couldn't really think of anything good for I went with my old stand-by of a naked lady. It's kind of like mature content...get it?
4. Change.
I've always wanted to do Doug Walker fan art
5. Dreams
This is how I've been sleeping a lot lately
6. Pessimistic
Ok, here I downloaded the REAL photoshop (not GIMP) and started playing with cool brushes and shit. It was fun
7. Pirate
8. Novel

Like I said, these are QUICK. I spend maybe 15-30 minutes on each of them. I'm not trying to create masterpieces right now. I just want to get comfortable using a tablet and all the tools. Maybe eventually I'll take some of these themes and do cooler stuff. But for now, yea, I feel like this is helping a bit. I'm also hoping this will spur some illustration skills and stuff.

Oh yea, I started a writing blog for the novel I am working on. Yay.