Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Last Session Before NPD

Last day of drawing before NPD next sunday!!! Gaaah I am so unprepared for this thing. I don't know what to bring, how formatted it should be, how much to bring >_< And then I think of sitting there with someone staring at my art and thinking about nothing but and they're right in front of me and AAHHH so much pressure!!

Ok, well here's Zoe, with the pretty hair. I think my gestures are improving? Also, I heart colored pencils
2 min

5 min
10 min

15 min
15 min

20 min...don't like this one much

25 min. Zombies! Yay!

Yep, thats it folks. I think my anatomy is getting better too. All thats left are my "typos" of drawing

Sunday, September 20, 2009


Hell week is officially over. Which ,makes me really happy. I slept for 11 hours last night and it was beautiful. I am feeling quite a bit better.
Yesterday though was pretty awful. I had to wake up at 7 am and go volunteer, then I went to drawing straight after, and then straight to work. I didn't get home til 10. Thats been what my whole week has been like. I haven't done a lick of homework.

Anyway, since I had been volunteering, I missed all the gestures which makes me mad because those are what I need to work on most. And I was so tired I was pretty much sucking completely at everything. People keep telling me to use charcoal but I was too exhausted to even try. I did some charcoal work, finished early, so I started using my colored pencils. Personally, I like what I do with my colored pencils so much more. They are so much smoother and softer and I can actually use them without dropping them, making lines wrong, etc. Pretty much everything in here is about 5-7 minutes long

You don't even get to see the charcoal versions of these, they're so bad

This was a 20 minute peice. Right before this I called my boss who told me he hadn't found anyone to cover my shifts (BS too, he could have tried harder, I've talked to people who weren't getting enough hours this week) and I felt so overwhelmed I started crying and basically just feeling like shit. It was really hard to control myself in a room full of people. Sadly, it was during this I made my best work for the day. Even though the hand is shit. I like the rest
20 min pose....boring, and from an odd angle. The foot was wrong, and I couldn't fix it and it made me angry.

Portfolio day is in T-minus 7 days. I really need to pick out my best works and put them together in a portfolio, as well as compile a few pages of gestures and some of my animal sketches. And maybe some sketchbook pages? I guess this is like a preliminary portfolio, and it's stressful. Any suggestions as to what I should put in it?
Someone on AB made the point the other day of how we were getting carried away in our "experimental" ideas. I knew from the beginning calarts really only wanted to see that you could draw well, and also that you could think creatively at the same time. Well duh. I guess I had jumped on the bandwagon. I am focusing more on my anatomy and 3d structure more these days, just because I know its important I can do that and not just make things crazy. I am really concerned I don't know this stuff well enough though. Even if I could get in on the stuff that I have, I would flounder in the school.
This is why I am not too afraid. I think I have gotten over my fear of not going to college right out of highschool. There are a lot of different paths you can take in life, and college right away isn't the only one. Lots of really successful and happy people never went to college at all. I think I'd be ok with going to CU, being a ski bum, doing an exchange program, or this one work program in austrailia (traveling+surfing+work=awesome) while simultaneously working really hard on my drawing skills. I know they're not up to par, and I don't want to get in when I know I am not worthy.
And besides, I have a whole lifetime looking at me. I have years and years to get into the animation industry. How much time do I have to travel, to party, to experience life? I want to take advantage of it while I still can. As soon as I get into calarts I will be tied down to the industry forever, and before you know it I'll be married and have kids and thats when its all over!

People who have blogs and are in calarts have started posting their work and I am so overwhelmed by how AMAZING it is and how they say they are overwhelmed by how amazing everyone else it. So much amazingness it's scary!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Lets just call this a shitty week

Its really not been a good week...meh

But today I went to a portfolio workshop, which was pretty helpful. I saw SO many people there I knew. Lots of kids I went to school with in the past. Ran into two good friends too ^.^
One of them proceded to follow me to drawing tonight.

2 min
The model tonight was new. And her poses were certainly different but the best part was she actually had some meat on her bones. For once I got a model that looked like the ones in the all the anatomy books, and you can't see her entire rib cage
5 min

10 min...seductive look. I cant tell if the head was too small or my camera was too tilted while taking this

10 min

10 min, at first I was really annoyed by the sheet she used as a prop, but then I found it rather convenient since it covered most of the feet. Also, it looked pretty

I don't know why my computer does this...these are the photos that should actually be the right way originally. Whatever. I am tired.
15 min...she looked like she was praying, so I added a window
25 min....I kind of like this one quite a bit, besides the big toes

I haven't gotten a break from shit for awhile and my friends are giving me crap for backing out on something they were counting on.
I'm a person, not a house. Sorry.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Back to Class

The free figure drawing is back. I am happy about this, since I need some instruction. But at the same time...I remember why I never liked that class much in the first place. He doesn't actually pay much attention to us since the returning students its more a matter of practice rather than instruction I guess? Anyway, no model today, we just drew each other in a bunch of gestures. The first few weeks will focus on portraits, which I don't want to do but I know I gotta work on it.

3 min....Drew it twice
For some reason this didn't get flipped...3 min, drew her 3 times, each more reduced than the last.

3 min

1 min...disco stu says "lets boogie!"

1 min

1 min

Now the following are all in backwards order from last sunday...going for the conservative more anatomical and technical approach. Ah but I can't help but be experimental sometimes XP
20 min

20 min...I think. There is just something off about this and I can't figure it out. I think its the nipples
I KNOW the hand is waaaay too small. I even made it bigger, but bleh. Hands just suck

15 min...felt the need for charcoal on this one. Legs are off. meh.
15 min...I just realized how the foot doesn't connect with the leg at all....that was really fail of me. WTF.

10 min...I think my favorite from the day

10 min

10 min...nevermind this is my favorite ^.^

2 5 min poses...caught her face in a yawn XD

Some 2 min gestures

2 min gestures

I am debating whether or not to post my stuff on AB or not....while I like getting feedback its just the same stuff every time...and I have to practically beg for it! I think I'll just wait til NPD for some really solid feedback or something.
I'd love for someone to tell me I am getting better at least a little bit though T.T Today has not been a good day. I feel like my friends are using me to feed their addictions and party-habits and I feel so completely lost and empty....Old and new habits are urging me but meh >_<

Friday, September 11, 2009

Latest Sketchbook Stuff

Just thought I would share whats up in my sketchbook, which I have been using almost every day now. Especially in math.

This is me being a fangirl for book ever. I always loved the stilken part
This must have been a summer afternoon where I was bored. Especially because of the duck in the football helmet

More fangirlness...lirael fighting the stilken...never finished this

Math class....there's Zack in his weird leather jacket...Grant who is one those nerds thats really snobby...and the connor, travis, and seth. Travis is actually a genius, even though he's the biggest stoner ever
Um, a lot of people. I think nishta is the spitting image of her. Good job me. Oh and don't forget lamp, my best friend ever. I sit with him in the corner of the room and he brings me joy in my horrible math class
In TOK we had a group discussion....Zack sat in lots of interesting positions on the floor

More teacher got really mad at me for doing this during a guest speaker. I guess it looked rude or something. Zack looks perfectly like himself here. As does Lily. ...well ok not really but I think so anyway!

Rachel in math class...
More math class....nishta, mrs. pendleton, seth, stacy
Lunch was super bright outside. My eyes burned. Tara looks nothing like herself. Vicky actually does, but she kept complaining loudly how ugly I made her and how pretty tara looked. I didn't want to point out to her that tara looks nothing like that. Its more just a stock face I use.

A peice of my IW....I thumbnailed the project I am going to do first out to the left. On the right is me ranting about how much I hate thomas kinkade.

A nifty style test I did today for the rocks on my peice.

The end! Yay!